Being a referee for Njrc is really tiring. 7.30am-6pm everyday wtczyw. 2 days down, 3 more days to go. The first 2 days is for primary schools and nxt 2 days for the seconday,nxt for tertiary and last day for finals. I am a timer for the 1st day, and a runner for today. Which means I haven't been a referee yet. Which means most probably I will be the ref for tmr. I don't think i can handle primary kids so how am i going to get pass tmr when the participants were secondary students, who may not listen to me and may argue back to the ref, whereas for the pri sch kids, most will just nod their head (abit blur) and follow instructions. Looking at other people being a ref and ownself be a ref is totally different. Its a totally different ball game. Hope tmr will go smoothly for me.

I know that i have no confidence in myself and thats y i always feel that i can't do anything right. But i seriously does not know how to gain confidence in myself... I don't think telling myself "adrian, u can do it!" repeatedly will helps.

I want to pick up guitar. Duno since when jiu told lam tt i want to learn and ask him to learn wib me tgt but...nv,lol lam, still wan learn? Learnt new things frm this gal lulu who was my partner for day1. she is so confident in herself be it being a ref, and the way she talks and find it quite true. Forgot what she said le but this is roughly what she said.
lulu: i have a diary that take notes of what i am going to do for each day. My diary is always full.
me: i dont even have a diary. i think even if i have 1, it will be empty.
lulu: tts y u nid to have 1, so tt u noe how empty ur life is.

Its so true. My life was so empty for the past 17 years?? compared to her, i am so... i am lyk nothing... she knows piano, guitar, many types of dances, knows how to deal wib business and many many more...she is also a councillor. OMG...too godly le... xian mu her... Shouldnt waste my life anymore. guitar will be the first thing tt i m gng to learn. Intend to buy a cheap cheap guitar after i got my pay. Hope my parents will not forbid. I think i have setted my goal le... I want to be a singer, release my own albums sing for everyone on the stage, and maybe sing the theme song for our national day one day.

Just now went to my granny hse for dinner. My young cousins went there also, 1 pri4 the other pri3. We were insulting each other calling each other nicknames. some examples were "u r LEE JIA SAI", "u r LEE JIA SHIT", "FEI PO", "DA FEI ZHU" and they were laughing at the pronunciation of the word NAN CHIAU primary and "cheese pie hole"(with a classic shake butt action) rofl...Then while we were playing, my aunt came in and commented that my cousin has slim down quite alot and siad tt she doesnt look lyk a "bah wan" (meat ball in hokkien) anymore...I laugh till i drop...lol...den she came up wib "CHAO ZHOU YU WAN" wib her sounded lyk english de chinese and her spastic movements to insult me...lol...Although she said me fat, i wasnt angry ut i find it very funny and it cheers me up...haha...

When i went home, they came to de door and shouted BYE BYE CHAO ZHOU YU WAN...=.= hahahaha...