My 80th post. Not a happy post. Defintitely. Long and Dry.
Injured my last finger today in the morning while i was playing basketball with them. At first it was alright, but a few hours later, my finger started swelling and i cannot bend my finger as it was very painful.Went to my grandmother house. Told her about my hand and she asked me to apply zambuk to ease the pain. I did so and i keep trying to bend my finger as i was told so by her. She said that if i do not constantly move my finger, in the future, my finger will be inflexible...
She called my uncle as he had injured his finger before. We did not told my dad because everyone knew about my Father's temper. So never inform my father about it. I thought my injury is not very serious, as my friends have experience this before and it will recover after a few days. When he returned, my grandma told him about this and soon, he started scolding...
Scolded me for not letting him know about my injury and said that it could be a major problem...Scolded me for delaying treatment...scolded for always hiding things from him...Banned me from basketball...Said that he banned me because he will not need to worry about me. Warned me that if i plays the basketball again, he will bann me from everything. FUCKFUCKFUCK.
Screamed in the car throughout the journey to the chinese tui na and back frm the tui na.
Knowing his bloody foul temper, not only me, everyone in my family dare not tell him anything bad. Everyone afraid that he will scold. Everyone even my grandmother.
He said that "paper cannot cover the fire", and that he will scold if he knew early and will also scold if he knew later. He said that he will not bann me from bb if he knew it earlier...
BUT TO ME THAT WAS NONSENSE...AND THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH FOR SHOWING SO MUCH CONCERN FOR ME THAT YOU BANN ME FROM BASKETBALL BECAUSE ITS ALL FOR MY OWN GOOD. SERIOUSLY THANKYOU.
Seriously have communication problem with you. You said that i said that i dont like to talk to you because i said that you always talk lyk you want to scold people and will flare up for anything...even for small matters. Small matters may look so big to you. I dont think that my statement is wrong.
Sometimes tried to talk to you, but its like if i spend 1 day with you, i will be scolded for at least 3-4 times a day. So if i have the brains, i will choose not to talk to you so that at the most i will be scolded for at the most 1 time??or mayb2??
Everytime, when i think that you are not that fierce or unreasonable afterall, u will somehow find something to scold me. I WILL TRY MY BEST TO NOT TALK TO YOU, SO THAT YOU WILL NOT BE A FATHER THAT I DISLIKE.
You always thinks that i mix around with bad people and may picked up smoking and do all kinds of illegal stuffs. I just duno y. I am such a good for nothing to you...
My cousin says i can try writing a letter to you, but i dont think it will work. Saying anything that i feel is correct and sensible, makes no sense to me.
Everything has to pass through you. I want to work but i am afraid you will not allow. Everything you want to scold.
HATE IS A STRONG WORD BUT I REALLY DON'T LIKE YOU.
CALL ME AN UNFILLIAL SON, I WILL RAISE BOTH HANDS AND AGREE TO YOU. I DON'T CARE.I WISH I CAN GROW UP SO THAT I CAN HAVE FREEDOM.
I WILL REMEMBER TAHT YOU BANNED ME FROM MY FAVOURITE SPORT. THANKYOU FOR BEING SO NICE TO ME.