Okay. Time of a longer update as requested.
holiday is here again and its time to rot.
I suck. Badly. in everything.
Can't get the dance steps right. Even if I got it right, I look ugly in my moves. My body looks weird to me no matter how I see my self in the mirror. I feel that my fats are covering up my self confidence, but waht can i do? I want to take ballet class outside school, but I don't have the $, and don't tink my parents will sponsor me. Why am I so lousy? After joining dance for so long, I feel like I am still stucked at that paethetic level. Buck up Adrian. sigh.

I might be anti social, not having a lot of friends, but I know that I have really great friends who will be there for me. I really wanna thank Josie for asking me if I have any problems in the steps while we were learning from veronica, and also helped me, teached me the steps that i can't get it right. I was really slow just now and keep on getting the steps wrong, but she nv gave up on me. I thought she will teach till "bu nai fan" den give up. I really appreciate it. Thankyou very much if u see this here. I shy to thank u in person. D:

I weighed myself just now. My machine says I am 79.5kg today. Finally, like after so so long, I can see the 7 in front of my weight. Past weeks I had been gorging myself, due to my stressful exams. I hit my highest weight of 83kg last week. T.T
But maybe it's because I only had pocky for dinner today. Hope I can maintain the digit 7. Exercise exercise exercise. I must slim down, I guess thats the only way i can have more confidence in myself. Tomorrow I am going to exercise.


Received a call from Kbox a few days ago, so I'm going for Kbox interview at 8pm tomorrow. Hopefully I can get the job, since its near my house. I can save more $ on my wants. Qi and ansar asked me go amk interview for fish & co. but I feel that its super far. The journey there is like 1hr+ by train? Think of the long ride, I am already sian 1/2. Think of the $ to be spent on transport, sian another 1/2. Quite reluctant to work at amk...but see how bah... see how it goes tmr.

Looking forward to the "Run Singapore" on 6th sep. 5km. The longest distance I have ever run. Even though 5km is like peanuts to alot of ppl, its gonna be a challenge to me, because my longest distance ran was like 2.4km, lesser than half. And 2.4 was enough to make me ache all over the following day. haha.

Shall go play dota awhile before I go sleep. First blood by easy AI. haha. Practice makes perfect. If i am jobless this holiday, I shall practice dota. BYE.

Avoid the food. Big fat ass.

Its time for the perculator~ LOL this is hilarious. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Perculate- A graphic way to describe one gaining moisture in personal areas during sexual arousal.

I must study hard.

Everything sucks.
I wish i had better windows better doors to block out all voices coming in and all voices going out.
Screaming helps destress, but there's no way i can scream in my small messy room. there's neighbours above me, parents outside my room.
sigh. alot of stuffs to say but lazy to type out. Feeling very pek chek inside me, but i duno what is the reason for it. Maybe every single thing now contributes to my pek chek-ness.

I feel hopelessly stupid. I am the limit to stupidity.
Hope the haze goes off soon, better not peaks to psi 100 again..if not i cannot go run...
Ate alot at kok house today. Tummy bulging out till i cant see my foot.
I m fucking fat now.

I think I have to be more serious.
I feel that if I am not serious, people will not treat me seriously.

Don't know why, I am not in good mood today. Everything sucks.

Stop joking around Adrian.

On my way home just now, i saw weiting. reminded me of tuition days...haha...i miss mrs lim...

Sigh...Kbox kbox kbox...

I wish i could own 1 ktv lounge. No need to ask anyone to acc me.